Anxiety and knitting

ARRRRRGH!!!

I am dealing with my anxiety issues that plague me from time to time. They annoy me and frustrate me to no end. I know my fears are totally unfounded, but I am (mentally) helpless at changing them. I refuse to use booze to conquer my fear; if I am to conquer it, I need to do so of my own strength and will. I can do it, I have done it before. I have a mental switch that just needs to be flipped into the ON position. Just to find that switch...

In knitting news, Frankenknit 2-Electric Boogaloo is coming along swimmingly. *just probably jinxed it to failure by that statement* *sigh*

*yawns*

This is driving me nuts. I have been so tired lately...anyway. Yesterday right before I fell asleep, I was patting him on the shoulder, and went to sleep with my hand there. I woke up, my hand was still on his shoulder. That was nice. Finally, I'm beginning to relax and not feel like he's going to hop up and run away for another 6 months...wasn't pleased with Night however. Bastard.

Never work on my paranoia.

(watch, my two days off? I'm not going to be able to sleep)

Also with Frankenknit 2- electric boogaloo? I've noticed something that drives me crazy. I swear it looks like every other row I am perling...wtf?

*starting to relax*

Have decided to pick up the knitting again. YAY. I'm starting to feel more comfortable that the errant bf, is no longer errant.

I told him today that if he wants to start some more knitting, since he left his in Texas, he's more than welcomed to help himself to my supply of yarn and needles. I'm also starting to feel more comfortable around him, now that I know he's not going anywhere, anytime soon.

plus? there's nothing sweeter than being awake during cool fall nights.

its really no contest...

Cannot imagine being without him. How often do 6 ft 4 gods of democracy who speak multiple languages, sing, play guitar and write music, and knit, like you?

Um...yeah. Big freak for the win.

squeee!

Well, I finally got the damn songs from him. I've only been waiting now for...6 months? Come to think of it, I finally got him back temporarily after 6 months.

*crossing fingers that he does what he said he would do...it would be cool to have someone in the house to knit with.*

new beginnings.

New ravelry name, new blog. (srsly, i forgot my password/name for the other one)

maybe this time, I'll actually knit something!